Saturday, October 13, 2012

Sad Update!!!!

I went to get my second beta done today and the doctor called with bad news. My original beta was 120 and this one was 168. Which means I am possibly having a miscarriage. There is a slim chance that both embryos implanted and now only one remains and that is the reason for the numbers not doubling!

However, when the doctor called back the second time (I was crying too much the first time), she said this was more than likely an unsuccessful pregnancy! Those words are just horrible!!!I am not sure what to think right now, I just know my heart feels like it was cut into tiny pieces.

I am asking for prayers! Prayer that I am in that small chance and we still have the blessing of being parents once again! I go back Monday morning for more bloodwork. This beta will let us know for sure what is going on with the babies.

My brother sent the me the serenity prayer via text and I am trying to pray it! It is just so hard to even pray without crying and getting mad. :(


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5 comments:

Dan and Leigh said...

praying Dana that one baby is hanging on. I'm so sorry your journey to becoming a parent and then the second time has been so difficult and emotional. Keep us posted...lifting you up in prayer.

Amber said...

Oh Dana! I'm so sorry. Really hoping your beta this morning brings a great number!

Jennifer said...

I know every situation is different but I do want to let you know that I had a similar story as far as numbers go. I was devastated. I told everyone it didn't work. Then, the numbers started to climb...slowly. The RE said it was most likely a failed attempt and I was likely going to miscarry. Long story short, my son is now a happy, healthy 2 year old! Fingers crossed for a similar ending.

Heather said...

Oh sweetie!! I am so very sorry. I know all too well how badly this hurts. My prayers are with you as you grieve the loss of your babies. Rest in His arms, He will hold you!!
-Heather

Kimberly said...

I have been exactly where you are right now! It's not easy, but I will keep you in my prayers.