Saturday, September 1, 2012

Waiting, just practicing some more!!!

I am at the house waiting on UPS to bring me my trunkload of medications! I have to sign for them so I have yet to take a shower and I am constantly listening out for the doorbell or a faint knock. I looked back at some of my old blog posts from our first IVF and it kinda freaked me out.

I read that I was tired all of the time. Tired!! And I had no toddler running around! Oh my!!! Then I read that my left ovary took it's sweet time producing follicles! Which means that I will have many daily trips for ultrasounds and bloodwork before my egg retrieval. Just reading all of that wore me out. I know I shouldn't complain! Complaining isn't a great quality and I am sure y'all don't want to hear it!

I just get nervous! Then I have to remember that I may not be able to do this, but with God I can do anything!! I just have to trust in His plan! Even if it means to go through this entire process with no second blessing as a result. I have to surrender it all to Him. And who knows maybe this time won't be like the last time!

I think the reason it is harder not to get ahead of myself this time around is b/c I see Noah and I know miracles do happen. I know that at one time God created a life and sustained it in me!! So there will be a lot of times that I will have to just say...Dana take a deep breath, a few steps back, and sloooow down!!!

So today I am thankful that my in laws are watching Noah as I am STILL recovering from the hysteroscopy! I am thankful that I was able to do my devotional this morning and spend time with my Lord. I am thankful for frozen's what's for lunch (remember I can't leave the house). I am thankful for insurance coverage. I am thankful for ibuprofen :) hehe I am thankful for dishwashers and washer and dryers!!! I am thankful for this blog and all of my sisters out there, you know who you are ;) Love y'all!!!


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