Monday, July 11, 2011

Time for a change!!!

  I have always compared myself to others. I am sure everyone does this at some point. Well me, I guess I can be a pro at it!! Especially since I have become a momma. I want to make sure I am doing everything "right" and being the best. So I end up reading other blogs and feeling bad that I don't have a spotless house, or that I am not constantly out and about with Noah, or that I don't have tons of friends that I get to have girl's nights with every other wkend. Don't get me wrong I don't in any way think it is bad to have any of those, in fact I really do wish I had all of that!!! But I have come to realize (from the wiseness of an amazing friend) that I have to be happy being ME! When I do compare myself I often wonder what is wrong with me and think why can't I just get it together! Then I start this horrible cycle of putting myself down and feeling worse and worse. Then you add that in with someone (me) that is very spiritually malnourished and you have a bad combo!!

I started this blog by being just me! I never worried about what I wrote or what pics I posted. I never held back. I need to be that person once again. Why not start here!! I am sure there are others just like me out there feeling the same way!

We live in such a technical world! Texting, internet, tv, twitter, blogger, fb, pinterest, etc!!! I need more human contact and not so much computer contact, ya know?? I am thinking of taking a break from reading other blogs for a little while. And just focusing on living my life and writing whatever I feel like writing about!

So if you are like me and are feeling the walls closing in on u as a new what I am doing and start slow. I am picking up my Bible and doing some reading...getting my hiney up and going to church..and getting out of the house more! Oh and we are going a bit far and cutting off our Dish and limiting internet. I need this right now. I need to block out all the noise so I can hear God again and not my stupid thoughts telling me how I am not good enough!! Hopefully then I will find balance!!!


Melissa said...

Dana you are a wonderful person! I hope you find answers you are seeking! You will be missed!

Patterson Family said...

One thing I am not afraid of is putting what I want on my blog. It's my space and if anyone doesn't like it, they don't need to visit. :-) And, I think you should look at it the same way. All through our trials of getting (and staying) pregnant it has been a place to vent, look for suggestions, and just find others in a similar situation...and, it still is. This isn't to say that you don't need personal connections with people because I do believe that is important, too, but I just want to encourage you.

BTW - we cancelled our cable about 6 months ago, and I haven't missed it one bit! It's actually kind of nice to not even turn the tv on. :-)

Anonymous said...

I so understand its so hard being a mom and not to look at others and wonder if you are doing everything right. Enjoy your break

Angelwingsbaby said...

I can't tell you how much I feel the same way. It can be so hard to see how crafty,perfect,social butterflyish and perfectly clean others are. I have really struggled with this too. I honestly have to say that the not having a group of girl friends or even a best friend to get together with is the hardest.I so wish we lived closer so we could get the kids together for a playdate or have a girls day out. :-) -Megan