Wednesday, March 9, 2011

I'm a I'm a I'm a be

Today has been really good!! It did storm and Noah was fussy, but as I sit here with Noah down for the night, the dryer sound in the background, and Maggie laying by my side I feel very thankful for today rain and all!!!! I have been working out (some) lately when I find the time, energy, and someone to watch Noah. Thankfully my momma watched Noah this morning so Todd and I could hit the gym and do the group power class (which explains the post title of the song that I cannot get out of my head from class). If you haven't heard of this class let me tell you about it!! You use a bar and wts and basically do a gazillion reps with smaller wts. It is tough but at the end I am very pleased that I pushed myself and the saying that exercise makes you have energy seems to be true b/c it gave me a lot of energy and motivation today!!! So YAY!!!! Since I started working out and taking my metformin again I have lost 7 lbs!!! I am super excited about that b/c I know the more I lose the healthier I will be and feel, plus I know it will help my body if God blesses us with another miracle!!!

Lately I find myself daydreaming about another miracle. Todd and I were even chatting about boy names today in the car. Then when we got home and oddly enough once Grammy leaves Noah decides to get fussy (I guess he didn't want her to leave). I looked at Todd and said are you sure we could handle another child? You should have seen the look in his eyes, it was as if I could see right into his heart b/c he smiled with his eyes and said yes right away!! I guess he believes in me alot more than I believe in myself!!!! It is fun to dream!!! And I am going to let myself dream about another child! I will not let IF take that away from me!!!!!!!!

On another note......I have recently come off of my antidepressant. I kinda missed some days and would take one and it ended up where I slowly came off of it. I know better than to just stop a medicine like that, however lately I have noticed that I am sleeping alot deeper and having very vivid dreams. Last night I slept so hard that I woke up feeling like I had run a marathon and I had these really vivid weirdo dreams. Then again today when Noah went down for a nap I went out and didn't hear the thunder or my friend calling me on the phone. I was really OUT!!!! I am not sure if this is a side effect of coming off of the meds or not..but you know me I love my sleep so I will take deep sleep over NO sleep anyday!!!!

And lastly, but certainly NOT least!!!!! Let's talk about Lent!!! I cannot believe I let Lent get here I have not even thought about what to give up. I just let it slip up on me and I am upset with myself about it! So instead of giving up food, internet, tv, etc I am going to work on something else instead. I am going to give myself a break in the mommy guilt department. I know that eliminating mommy guilt entirely will be impossible so I am going to work on it and give myself a break. If the laundry doesn't get done, no worries...if Noah stays in his pjs all day, no worries. If I don't cook dinner, no worries...hehe :D Hey this is sounding better and better!!!!

Sorry for the random post but I had a lot on my mind and a short time to post! I am hoping everyone is having a great week so far!! And I was wondering if y'all could pray for two ladies that have been on my mind alot!!
Nichole and Katie
Thanks so much!!!!


shauna said...

Yay! on the weight loss. I am really trying to get motivated to work out consistently...still working on it :)

Patterson Family said...

Way to go on the work outs/weight loss! I agree...I feel so much better when I'm at a weight I know is healthy.

Dream away girlfriend!! :-)

momof5girls said...

Woohoo! I'm so happy for you and so VERY proud of your weight loss! Not only is it healthier for you, but you feel more encouraged and upbeat mentally! Praying for ya!