Monday, October 11, 2010

Gonna get watch out!!!

It is time to get real!! For serious, haha!! I learned a really good life lesson today and I thought I would share!! I have been struggling lately with my emotions. I really want to do things like house work and etc with a joyful heart, but I can't seem to keep the joy flowing. I end up getting mad! Usually I take this out on Todd (poor guy) and I can't even tell him why I am mad. I guess I just feel a bit overwhelmed and tend to put alot on my plate and then when I don't get it all done I get down on myself. Then you add the filters I have (counselor talk for baggage and how I view the world) and you get a crazy angry woman mad at the world for no good reason!!!

I would never want to share something online and to the world about my relationship with Todd that is too personal, but I really feel like this is more about me and not him! B/c it really is!! Ya see I was viewing things all wrong!! I was trying to be joyful in working for others when I am suppose to be joyful in working for God! Don't get me wrong I love to do things for other ppl, but it is harder when you worry if you are doing those things for approval or praise. Well if I do these things for God then I do it b/c DUH He is GOD!!! I mean he only sent His only son to die for our sins!! He has always been there for me when I was super sad or struggling with anything. He always answers when I call Him and forgives me when I don't call so much. He is my EVERYTHING!!! So instead of getting caught up in how many times I picked up the house or washed really isn't about that now is it?? God wants us to show others Him through our joy in doing everything! Kinda like the Duggar family always says to do things with a joyful heart. Well, I am working on it and it will always be a work in progress...but I am getting better.

And to my sweet hubby! I am soooo sorry for being so moody and mean this morning! I was really just mad at myself and judging myself. And as they say you take things out on the ones U love the most! SO maybe that is a compliment..haha!

So if you are having days when you feel like you are doing doing doing and feel like no one cares or that you just can't do anymore...Remember that you are doing it for God! Not for yourself and not for others! And He loves us very much and will not put more on our plates than we can handle. We are the ones that tend to fill our plates too full!!!!! Okay I hope that made sense!!!


pfranklin said...

Thank you Dana. This was a message I really needed to hear tonight. I didn't get mad at anyone but I did get my feelings hurt by someone and had myself a bit of a pity party over it.

This message made me realize that we shouldn't DO things for self praise. I needed an attitude adjustment, and you helped me see how and why.

Angelwingsbaby said...

I am right there with you ((hugs)) If you ever wanna talk because you need to talk to someone who also has a "plate full" feel free to contact me. My email is on my blog I would love to chat sometime :-)Take care

Stuart and Sarah Creamer said...

I totally understand how you are feeling! Thanks for this post! We need to catch up soon!