Thursday, May 27, 2010

what's going on with me

I cannot believe that I actually have a moment to blog! Last night Todd took over and I got some much needed z'ssss!!!!! And I feel like a new woman! Noah has been eating every two hours, especially at night, so it has been really wearing me down. Right now he has been asleep for 3 hours and I am in shock!!! I am sure he is about to wake up and I will have to finish this post later..haha I am learning that with motherhood you never can quite get things done the way you once could. But oh is it soooooo worth it!!!

I wanted to post about how things were going with me and how it is adjusting to a newborn. I have to admit it can be rough. The first few days home were really tough b/c of my c-section. I couldn't really lay on my side or even lay on my back to sleep b/c it hurt and I started to swell really bad. So when I could rest I wasn't able to. My swelling was so bad that I lost 10 lbs in one day when the swelling went away. It was crazy b/c I was more swollen than I was when I was pregnant. Now my pain is much better and I can sleep and get some rest.

I started to stress about how much Noah was eating and how often and of course whether or not to continue breastfeeding. I started out breastfeeding, but Noah didn't latch well so we had to use a nipple guard. Then we supplemented formula a few times and I think he decided he liked getting his food fast b/c he wasn't interested in breastfeeding anymore. I rented a pump and didn't get much milk and was bummed b/c I hated sitting by myself pumping and not being able to be with my baby boy. So I tried breastfeeding again (with the nipple guard). He latched on well and stayed there for 30 minutes on each breast, but wasn't swallowing anything so I felt more like a pacifier. It took me a few days but I decided to just do formula. That was a hard decision. Even though I know it is okay, it was hard to give that up!!!!

Then began the worrying over Noah's eating and sleeping. I kept hearing that he should be sleeping longer so I started to try and get him to eat more so he would sleep more. It totally stressed me out!!!! Then after my sister read me her girl's old feeding schedule she had documented I felt better about Noah's schedule. And I have decided not to fret about it at all!!! If I think ahead it just worries me, so I have been just enjoying each second with my Noah! It is much better this way!

And I always said I would make sure and document my weight and how things truly are after giving birth. I hate that all of these celebrities make it look like you bounce back so soon when that is NOT the case at all!!!! I have lost 27 lbs, but my tummy is still big and I tried on some old size 12 jeans today and they wouldn't even budge over my hips!! I will have to show a picture later. It takes time for the body to get back so don't be upset if it doesn't as soon as you want it to!!! I am totally happy with my body b/c it gave me Noah and I am giving myself a year to bounce back :D I mean it took almost a year to get this way..hehe!!!!

Other than that I am LOVING being a mommy!!!! And I love the way becoming parents has brought Todd and I even closer than we were before! It is all such a blessing from God!!!! Thank U Lord!!!

If you have any questions...feel free to ask away :D

Monday, May 24, 2010

1 week old already!!!!

hanging with daddy

first doctor's visit...all is well :D

all ready for the doctor's visit in his cute outfit


1 week old already!!!!! Happy birthday baby Noah!!


Noah is 1 week old and here are a few things about my little man:

He is eating 1 and 1/2 to 2 ounces at each feeding. And usually eating every 2 hours, which makes mommy and daddy really sleep...but well worth it!!

He loves to make his "pirate" face where he only opens one eye and it looks like he is say "garrrrr"..hehe
He doesn't like his feet being touched.

He is such a good baby and only cries when he is hungry or when we are changing his diaper.

He didn't even cry when we gave him his first sponge bath.

When he is about to fall asleep while eating he starts making this cute little sound like he is singing, it is precious.

I give him rasberries on his cheeks to wake him up when he falls asleep before he finishes his bottle, so far it is working.

He had his first doctor's appt. on his 1 week b-day and he did great. The doctor said he is very healthy. He was born weighing 8 lbs and 9 oz and went home from the hospital weighing 8 lbs and 3 oz. He weighed 8 lbs and 13 oz at the doctor's office. My boy is growing!!!!!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Noah's Birth Story

I left off letting y'all know that I was spotting on Sunday. Well, the doctor told me to come to the hospital and get checked out. I really thought I would be sent home, but they decided to keep me and induce. Everything was fine with Noah and me, but the doctor said since I was 41 wks she thought it was best to keep me and I was super fine with that :D Todd came to the hospital after work b/c they said it would be a long process. Here is how it went down:

Sunday, May 16, 2010
3 pm = 1 cm dilated, given meds to thin cervix
10:30 pm = massive contractions

Monday, May 17, 2010
12 am = given pain meds :D
1 am = 3 cm dilated, given epidural
3 am = they broke my water, there was meconium in it so I was a bit worried ( I think this is when they gave me pitocin to help bring on the contractions)
3: 15 am = they put a head monitor on Noah to monitor his hb
6 am = 5 cm dilated
9:15 am = 9 cm dilated..YAY
1:15 pm = 10 cm dilated when contracting..the doctor decides to give me a chance to try to deliver vaginally
PUSH for 1 and 1/2 hours....only a little bit of progress with bringing him down
4 pm = doctor decides to do a c-section, at this point I am just ready for Noah to be here and I was exhausted. I threw up three times while pushing...no fun!!!
5:25 pm = NOAH IS BORN!!!!!

And some pics :D

The pink bracelet club! My coaches!!! Terri (sissy), Momma, Todd's Mom, and Todd


The best coach of all :D He was amazing!!!


Anxious grandparents :D


Me and my sweety!!!! We are so excited to meet Noah!

He's ready for surgery..ha!

Meeting my son for the first time!! **KISSES**


Todd holding Noah for the first time :D


Mommy holding Noah for the first time :D
We are all doing great!!! I have been recovering well from my c-section and working on breastfeeding. But I will post on that later. Right now Noah is eating about every 2 hours and sleeping like a champ! He is such a happy baby :D Todd and I are still trying to get into a groove! He goes back to work on Tuesday and my momma is coming to help me out. I really don't want him to go back to work, but I know it is a must..haha The three of us have been having so much fun bonding!!! We are so thankful to God for our little miracle! He is such a blessing and we are soooooo in love!!!!


Friday, May 21, 2010

Sorry for the delay, but introducing.........


Noah Wesley Livingston
5-17-10
8 lbs 9 oz
21 inches long
more to come......


Journey to Noah
Started TTC after getting married in May 2005
2006
Really started TTC in May 2006 after graduating from GRAD school...no luck!!!
2007
One chemical PG
LAP = blocked tubes..unblocked
2008
referred to RE
Diagnosed with PCOS, started Metformin
...tried Femara..BFN
..tried two IUI's...BFN
Took a break for a few months...BFN
2009
Feb. 2009 - Starting IVF
April 2009 - IVF #1 BFN, 3 Frozen embryos
May 2009 - FET #1, BFP on May 12!
Betas: 64.9 and 242
May 29, 2009 - lost our baby
June and July 2009 - break!!!
August FET #2, Pregnant!
Betas: 211 and 412 and 10,554
Sept. 18: first u/s :heartbeat 125 bpm
Oct. 2 : Second u/s :heartbeat 180 bpm
Oct. 11: First OB appt.:Third u/s :heartbeat 185 bpm
Nov. 16: 2nd Ob appt. @ 15 weeks, all is well
Dec. 15: BIG U/S!! It's a BOY!!!!! Noah Wesley!!!
May 17, 2010 @ 5:25 pm Noah Wesley is born via c-section weighing 8 lbs, 9 oz. and measuring 21 inches long!!!

Monday, May 17, 2010

Journey To Noah

Started TTC after getting married in May 2005


2006
Really started TTC in May 2006 after graduating from GRAD school...no luck!!!

2007
One chemical PG
LAP = blocked tubes..unblocked

2008
referred to RE
Diagnosed with PCOS, started Metformin
...tried Femara..BFN
...tried two IUI's...BFN
Took a break for a few months...BFN

2009
Feb. 2009 - Starting IVF
April 2009 - IVF #1 BFN, 3 Frozen embryos
May 2009 - FET #1, BFP on May 12!
Betas: 64.9 and 242
May 29, 2009 - lost our baby
June and July 2009 - break!!!
August FET #2, Pregnant!
Betas: 211 and 412 and 10,554
Sept. 18: first u/s :heartbeat 125 bpm
Oct. 2 : Second u/s :heartbeat 180 bpm
Oct. 11: First OB appt.:Third u/s :heartbeat 185 bpm
Nov. 16: 2nd Ob appt. @ 15 weeks, all is well
Dec. 15: BIG U/S!! It's a BOY!!!!! Noah Wesley!!!

2010
May 17, 2010 @ 5:25 pm Noah Wesley is born via c-section weighing 8 lbs, 9 oz. and measuring 21 inches long!!!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

41 weeks!!!!! 7 days past due!!!

41 weeks! Yeah I never saw this post coming..HA!!! I was sure I would be holding the most beautiful baby boy in my arms by now! However, my sweet Noah has other plans. I was hoping something more was happening last night b/c I started spotting. Well, it was a little more than spotting, but not much. I called the doctor's office and they paged the doctor like 5 times and she never called me back. I finally decided to go to bed b/c the bleeding wasn't heavy and I knew this was part of labor. I am keeping an eye on it today and if it gets heavier I will try to call again. I cannot believe the doctor never called me back!!!! SCARY!!! Oh and I had a little bit of cramping, but it wasn't consistent and timeable! And Noah has still been active and moving! I am not sure how he can even move in there, but he does and I am glad he does b/c it makes mommy feel better. You would think at this point in my pregnancy things would progress a little bit faster, huh?

I am hanging in there and everytime I say that I picture that poster with the kitten on it hanging from a branch. Too cute!! No 41 week picture yet, I am hoping that the next picture I take will be in the hospital!!!

Friday, May 14, 2010

5 years with my Toby!!!!

Five Years of Bliss!!!!!

My amazing husband and I were married five years ago!! Our Anniversary is May 21st, but considering that Noah could come any minute I did not want to wait and let this pass without posting! I am truely blessed b/c I married my best friend!! We are probably one of those couples that makes other ppl sick to watch. I could do anything with Todd and it would be fun! We make each other laugh daily and I just love the way he loves me!! He is my rock and life is so much sweeter with him in it!

Our story is very simple. We met in college and dated for a little while, then went our seperate ways. Thankfully, I kept his number in a journal of mine and when I was off to the big city to finish more college (ha) I came across his number in my journal. The Lord sure did give me the strength to call him up that day b/c I have never been so confident. And the rest is history! We started dating again and have been together pretty much everyday ever since! We have survived grad school together and infertility! And now we are about to embark on the biggest challenge of our lives....parenthood! I could not ask for a better partner in life!!! This has been the most amazing five years and I look forward to soooo many many more with my Toby!!! Thank you sweetheart for loving me so much! You are going to be the BEST daddy ever and I cannot wait to see you hold our son for the first time! Happy 5 Years!!!!! My Love Always!

Ultrasound/Doctor's visit @ 5 days past due!!

Let me start out by saying that I am EXHAUSTED today! I didn't sleep well lastnight and then we had an early appt. this morning so after I post this I am taking a LONG nap!!! We arrived early at our doctor's appt. and then had to wait a long time b/c they were behind. To our surprise the doctor had ordered a detailed u/s and so the u/s tech had to measure alot and the u/s had to be 30 minutes long! Which was fine with me b/c then I got to just sit and watch my sweet Noah :D However, laying on your back and being this pregnant was AWFUL!!! After a few minutes I felt like I was going to faint so I had to lay on my side for a while! Noah looked AMAZING!!! We got to watch him breath and his little heart was just a racing! We even got to see his full bladder!! His amniotic fluid was great and then we got the BIG news!!! Our boy is a big one b/c he is measuring at 8 lbs and 12 ounces!!!!!!!! I was in shock!!! The doctor said the u/s can be off by a pound so he could be 7 or 9 pounds!!! I am hoping for high 7 or low 8!!! But I am so happy to report he is super healthy and looking great!!

Then she checked me and said I was a whopping 1 CM dilated..HAHA!!! Yeah not much, if any, progress. So we are still scheduled for an induction on Tuesday evening, but the doctor seems to think he will come this wkend! I am not sure how she came to this conclusion, but I am guessing it was for my sanity..HA!!!! And yesterday's events was just what I needed to finish out this race!! I feel like I can make it to the finish line and I can actually see the finish line in sight! I am really hoping he does come on his own and we won't have to be induced, but this is all in God's hands. And He always knows best!!!! So I am off for a nap, then I plan to do several laps around the couch this evening! It is way tooooo humid and hot outside to even try to walk out there! GA humidity is tough stuff!!!!! Thank y'all for all of the encouragement and prayers and of course love!!! Love y'all too!


Come

on

Noah

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Unplugged!!!! 4 days past due!

I am super excited to say that my body is starting to work! I guess I should have had a little more faith!! This morning I lost my mucous plug! Yeah, gross! And then I had some contractions. The contractions were sporadic and probably more false labor than anything else, but YAY for something, right? And I can tell he has dropped b/c I feel so much pressure on my lower belly now when I get up...I think they call this lightening! I called my doctor's office, even though everything I have read said this is normal, it just helps to hear the professional say it too. The nurse called me back and at first wanted me to come in, but then talked to the midwife and told me that this was perfectly normal and to wait it out! We have an appt. tomorrow morning for an ultrasound to check the amniotic fluid and to be checked again, so I am not worried! I am super stinkin excited!!! YAY!!!!

It is funny b/c last night I had a talk with Noah and told him if he could find it in his heart to come out soon that would be awesome b/c Mommy is miserable! And Todd talked to him too! Then we played lots of music (he liked the classical music the best) for our little guy and I walked up and down our stairs a few times! I guess that did the trick..hehe!!

I am hoping to report more later on :D Cross ur fingers, and toes, and eyes!!!!! Come on NOAH!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

2 days past due!

2 days past due and I am doing good!! I have been taking it easy contrary to everyone's advice to walk...walk..walk! I have just decided to take it easy and keep my feet from swelling so much. Plus, Todd has been working so it is much easier to just be a couch potato with him not here. I miss him :D

Yesterday, it felt like Noah moved even lower. *if that is possible* So maybe he dropped..not sure! And he is still active, but when he moves now it feels like he is going to crack one of my ribs or kick out an organ..HA!!! I swear sometimes I even hear a pop noise when he moves! Everytime I hear that I think it could be my water breaking. And he is totally snuggled into my right side (just like you said Mrs. Arlene). You can see him totally favoring my right side, which oddly enough makes just the right side of my back hurt.

Other than being totally lazy and worthless these past days I have been just thinking about Noah! He is all I think about! I wonder about everything: who he will look like, will he have black hair or start out with light brown, will he weigh under or over 7 lbs, will I go into labor on my own, will he come quickly or will it be a long labor, and so much more!!!!!

I really have a feeling that my body is preparing to go into labor! I have no "real" reasons to justify my claim, but it just feels like things are starting to move in the right direction. I am just starting to feel different and I wish I could explain it better. Maybe it is just my mother's intuition kicking in :D

Oh and for fun here is a picture of my flinstone feet :D


And a picture of sweet Maggie! This is what she does while I am drying my hair..which takes forever b/c I have super duper thick hair. Bless her heart she is very patient!!

Monday, May 10, 2010

Update from the doctor's appt.

Well, still no progress! This little booger is comfy and cozy in his mommy's tummy and just doesn't want to come out yet :D The doctor said all looks great otherwise! Noah's heartrate was perfect, my bloodpressure was perfect, and well we won't discuss my weight..HA!! He is still super low and ready to make his debut, but I am still only a fingertip dialated. The doctor scheduled an induction for NEXT Tuesday evening!!! The 19th!!! She will give me something to thin me out that night...oh and something to help me sleep (yay). Then on Wednesday she will start the meds to help bring on the contractions. She said he will possibly be here next Wednesday evening..the 20th! Oh and they are having me come in on Friday for an ultrasound to check the amniotic fluid level and make sure Noah is okay!

I have to admit I was really disappointed after this appointment. I had told myself that the longest I would have to wait would be this upcoming Sunday night (b/c of what they told me previously), but I cried and then I felt better. Todd and I had packed up our bags in the truck once again and I had the house ready, Maggie ready, and myself ready...just in case. And do you know how hard it is to shave your legs and be this pregnant?? So all I could think was man I have to do this all over again!! And I am worn out!!! Plus, there are so many people anxiously awaiting Noah's arrival. I feel like I just keep disappointing them! But then I realized that this is all about NOAH and nothing else really matters!! Once I came to my senses I have had such a peace about me. I am just going to enjoy these last few days that my son and I have together...JUST US!!! Sometimes I just have to think things out and then reason with myself! I guess that makes me crazy..HA!! B/c I am actually having this conversation with myself in my head, but the counselor in me is all about fixing things. And IF has taught me that it is all about perspective!!!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mother's Day...Due Date...40 wks!!!

40 wks!!!
Just wanted to update y'all! Nothing so far!! I was hoping I would wake up this morning and get out of the bed and be surprised by my water breaking. That is what happened to my momma! However, it did not happen. And that is okay b/c this mother's day has been AMAZING!!! It is the first mother's day that I have peace. For so long I have begged God for peace in the midst of so much pain with IF. And now knowing that my son could be here anyday now I am so thankful to have this little boy and to soon be a mommy!!! I have waited before and I can wait a little bit longer on my sweet Noah!

Todd and I were able to spend time with our mommas this wkend. We planned outings with them and had a great time visiting and letting them both know how much we love them and adore them!!! Remember I wanted to leave today open....just in case! Plus, I wanted some time with just Todd. And it has been great! Todd and I just enjoyed our day together. We (by we I mean Todd..haha) planted some plants and flowers in the yard and just took it easy. I did walk Maggie up and down the driveway several times hoping it would help me get closer to labor. Maggie loved being outside with us today too! She, of course, tried to eat everything in sight.

My tootsies are still pretty swollen, but Todd has been checking my blood pressure and it has been low....so I haven't been too worried about them. But they hurt when they are swollen!! And they look CRAZY! I can't help but laugh everytime I see my enormous flinstone feet. We have a doctor's appt. tomorrow really early and I am anxious to see what she says. Todd's dad seems to think I will go into labor tonight. And he was right about Noah being a boy....so maybe he is right about this. That would be great :D We shall see!!!

I am praying for all of my IF sisters on this mother's day. I know it is the hardest day of the year and it takes a lot of strength to get through this day. I pray for y'all to have peace!! And I am sending you all of my love!!!!!! xoxoxoxoxox

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Heavenly Sleep!!

I had the best night's sleep lastnight! And I know it is b/c God is still answering my prayer from the other night. I asked Him to help me get through the rest of this pregnancy and He answered. Thank U Lord!!!!!! I still got up to tinkle like a million times, but on this night I was able to fall deeply back asleep right away after every trip. I didn't even get up til 11!!! Yep eleven in the morning!!!! CRAZY!!!! And I am sure I could've slept longer but Miss Maggie had to tinkle really bad and woke me up. She is so cute when she scratches at my arm to wake me up. I guess 11 isn't so bad considering I didn't go to bed til after 12 am. Todd had to work late lasnight and then we watched TONS of tv. I finally had to just give in and go to bed, b/c my eyes were shutting and crossing. Maybe that is the trick, no naps during the day and then staying up til you can't keep your eyes open. If that is what it takes to sleep like I did lastnight then I am on board!!!

I called and left my dr. a message today. My feet are pretty swollen and even though I know it is totally normal, I really want to hear it from her. I am feeling better about waiting on Noah and being patient since I am feeling better today. It is harder to be patient when you back is hurting all day and you can't get comfortable to save your life. Plus, I haven't gone anywhere and that helps too. The thought of getting ready drives me nuts and it is SUPER HOT outside. I walked to the mailbox yesterday and almost melted..haha!

Mother's day is this wkend and it has been hard to even realize that b/c it is my due date as well. Todd and I made plans with our mommas on Friday evening and Saturday evening and we are leaving Sunday wide open in hopes someone decides to show :D But if he doesn't that is okay b/c I am excited to have a full day with my Toby! We need a day to ourselves and lately it seems there is always something to do and somewhere to go. So sunday will be our day :D Oh and on a sidenote I ordered from blog2print yesterday. It is a site where you can make a book from your blog. I only ordered the posts from 2008 and then I plan on ordering more. When I get it I will let y'all know! I really wanted to document our journey to Noah and have it as a keepsake forever to pass down. I never want to forget our journey and I want Noah to know how much his momma and daddy wanted him!!!

Happy Thursday Y'all!!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

NO PROGRESS!!!

We had our doctor's appt. today and I have NOT progressed at all!!! And on top of that we were told that we have to come back on Monday for yet another appt. and this doctor said that an induction wouldn't be til the 16th! We saw a different doctor!!! And she said that the previous doctor, the one that said she would induce the night of the 9th was mistaken!! But I am sure that is what she said last time!!! So I have an appt. with my original doctor on Monday. Maybe she will induce me that night if I have not progressed by then!! This appointment just ruined my day and put me in the worst mood!!!

I had gotten my hopes up and then they came tumbling down. And I know that I could go into labor anytime before Monday, but the way things have been going so far....it doesn't look likely!!! It feels like I may just be pregnant FOREVER, HA!!!!!! After the appt. Todd and I ate lunch and went flower shopping and my ankles and feet decided to swell up something terrible. They hurt!!!! Who knew they would actually hurt when they swell??? Not me!!! I propped them up when I got home and now they are doing much better! All in all, I am totally BUMMED!!!!!!!!! Pray that I go into labor naturally very soon or I may just have to wait FOREVER!! And this momma is getting impatient!!!!!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Noah's Room

I can't believe that I haven't posted any pics of Noah's room! It totally slipped my mind!!! So here they are :D Enjoy!!!
As you enter the room, you see Todd's beautiful painting, the nightlight, and the cutest little jacket!

Todd painted this for Noah, I hope Noah is as talented as his daddy!!!

Isn't this just he cutest nightlight! Ready for those late night feedings.


Rock a bye Noah :D

We have his little shelves ready with tons of books to read and toys to play with.


His little bear blanky that the girls got him is waiting for lots of snuggles with Noah

His changing table is all stocked and ready for tons of dirty diapers!!

The bed is ready with his mobile and sweet verse above it.

A closet stocked full of clothes for my handsome lil' man!

The shelves my dad made for Noah's closet has even more clothes for him. They are categorized by color, size, and style :D

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Seven Days!






In seven days or less little Noah Wesley will be here!!!! I am so tickled that I just can't stand myself right now..hehe I am already so proud of him and love him so much and I haven't even layed eyes on the little booger!!!

I can't imagine the ways my life is going to change very soon. I have been daydreaming about how things will go...like getting ready to go out...or how night time will be. I have NO clue how it will all be. The only thing I am sure of is that it will be filled with tons of lovins!!!!! I can't wait to hold my son and give him tons and tons of kisses.

I often wonder about Miss Maggie too. I wonder how she will react to her new little brother. Lately, she has been wanting me to hold her alot. Maybe she senses that her time as an only child is very limited, HA! She is such a loving little girl so I know she will be giving Noah tons of kisses too, but they will be very wet kisses :D

Well, I have been pregnant for 39 weeks~ almost 10 months ~273 days! It has been the best days of my life!!!! Even all of the not so fun stuff has been worth it all. Pregnancy is such a miracle and has surprised me in many ways. I am so thankful I was able to experience it and cherish this gift. And now I am about to add the most important role I will ever play in my life. the role as mom! As I type the word mom, I still cannot believe this is really happening. I am going to be a MOMMA!!!! Oh thank you Lord soooooo much!!!! Thank you for this little boy!!!

We go to the doctor on Tuesday so I will update everyone with the plan for induction..that is if I go past my due date. And if my belly button is any indicator I would say Baby Noah is done cooking..HAHA! It has started to pop out, which I never thought it would. Now Anna Nanna and I have matching outies..haha And I am hoping to get a 39 wk pic later on today...so I will update later with it.