Tuesday, November 24, 2009

I am thankful!!!!!!

This thanksgiving I have something very special to be thankful for!!! Every year while ttc and going through treatment after treatment I would get to a holiday and wish that I was pregnant or had a child to celebrate that holiday. Every holiday came and went and I would say that by next thanksgiving I will be pg...next Christmas..next mother's day. And every year I would feel this great sadness at each holiday.

It was not that long ago that I talked about my great sadness. I stole that phrase from the book the shack..an amazing book btw. It was not long ago that I had this enormous hole in my heart and I didn't see an end to my suffering!! Today I look back and I cannot believe I am here. I cannot believe I am pregnant and here we are coming up on a holiday. And not just any holiday, but a holiday that stresses being thankful.

I am so thankful for this miracle child!!! Words could never thank God enough for this blessing! To me thankful doesn't even cover how I feel. This blessing has filled the enormous hole in my heart and replaced my great sadness with overflowing joy!!!! I can't help but cry when I think about how blessed I am and remember how things were before!!! I know this holiday is going to be hard for my fellow sisters still ttc!! I wish I could fill your hearts and take the pain away.

This year I am thankful for modern medicine. Something that God gave us the ability to do!! I am thankful for the chance to be pregnant and experience every little bit of what pg entails. I am thankful for all the shots I had to take for the IVF, for the tons of headaches the meds gave me, for countless trips to ATL to my RE doctor, for all the tears and suffering that has led me to this point, for all the prayers from all of my family and friends, for all of the life lessons I have learned, and for most of all for the end result which is this child! May God bless you sweet child and may you always know how much your parents love you!!!!

1 comment:

Nichole said...

Dana - I am so glad you have so much to be thankful for this year. Although I am still struggling and in this hell - it is nice to see others come out on the other side. Enjoy this time, enjoy every minute of it!

Happy Thanksgiving friend!