Saturday, October 31, 2009

13 wk belly pics and maternity pants!

I finally got some maternity pants and I am loving them! They are so comfy and freeing! My belly is getting BIGGER!!!!!
Only two more weeks til my next OB appt. and it seems like FOREVER away!!!
I have a question for y'all. I am worried about the baby and wondering if I should call the OB and get a sooner appt. Or should I just wait it out the next two weeks and then request an u/s at my appt.??? I just feel worried b/c I haven't had an u/s in 3 wks and the last few ultrasounds my RE said the baby was measuring 4 days behind schedule. I just want to hear from an expert that the baby looks good and all is measuring on time. I am not sure if I told y'all, I know I planned on it. But we got to go to Todd's cousin's work this past Monday and get an u/s. She works for a cardiologist so the u/s wasn't clear at all. We did get to see the baby moving and see the heartbeat. However, she is not an u/s tech and we barely knew what we were looking at. I did feel good about everything after we left, but now I just want someone who knows what they are looking at to tell me everything is okay. Does that make sense or am I just hormonal???? Please tell me what you would do.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

12 wks belly shot!

I am very happy to have gotten past my first trimester!! Of course, I know I will still worry!! However, we were lucky to get to go to Jackie's work and get an ultrasound or as I like to call it a sneak peak :D The u/s machine isn't as clear as the one at the OB, but we got to see the baby moving alot and see the baby's heart beating. At one point we saw two cute little legs just a kicking!! It looked like frog legs, and we tried to see if anything was in between the legs, but this is the week that those parts just start to grow. I was OVERJOYED to see how much the baby was moving and I thought to myself that I cannot wait to hold this baby and give him/her tons of kisses and love. This child is already such a blessing!!!! Now I know I can wait until my next OB appt. and can rest assure that baby is doing great. This week was also a big week b/c I was able to come off of my metformin, so now I am down to only taking an aspirin and a PNV.

The next big milestone will be in a few weeks. I have read that I could feel the baby move as early as 16 weeks and of course at around 20 weeks we will do the big ultrasound and see if we are having Sarah Elizabeth or Noah Wesley!!!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

The Big Sis!!

I took Maggie and got her groomed today :D She is such a pretty girl!! They put two halloween bows in her hair, so I just had to get some fall pics of my baby!! She didn't really want to cooperate, but I got a few good ones in the mix. I tried to put her with a pot of our mums, but she really just wanted to jump down and play! Then I tried her in our outdoor chairs :D
She is probably thinking...momma leave me alone...haven't I been through enough today???
But I couldn't stop taking pics of my little monkey!!
Here she is about to jump down and let me know that this photoshoot is over!!hehe
Maggie is such a blessing and she is such a sweetheart!! She will always be our first baby and I can't wait to find her a shirt that says "I'm the BIG SIS!!"

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Tomato Soup and a Toasted Cheese Sandwich!!

I am loving me some tomato soup!!!! It didn't even occur to me that I had a food that I was craving until I sat down to down a bowl of tomato soup and TWO, yes TWO toasted cheese sandwiches!! This is a meal that I never get tired of!!
This is just a pic I pulled off of google, but you get the idea. However, I don't like mine to have any burnt areas on it!! I had already eaten mine when I decided to blog about this delicious meal :D

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

My Daddy, My Hero!!

Today my daddy (say it like this deddy) came over to fix this outside plug in for us. Growing up I learned that my daddy could do anything, and I mean ANYTHING!! He can wire electricity, build anything from chairs to a room on the house, plumb the whole house, fix cars, and stain wood with the best of them!! There are a million more things that my dad is good at, he is a jack of all trades!!!!! Oh yeah, I forgot he has the greenest thumb ever!! Unfortunately I didn't inherit that green thumb! He is my hero!! When I was little he always made me feel so loved and safe! One time I remember having an earache and he put some meds in my ear and I was crying b/c I was in so much pain. Well, he told me this story about how there is this train in my ear and little ppl and they were getting the medicine and fixing my ear. I stopped crying immediately and could picture my little helpers in my ears :D He also knows how to "throw" hurt away, like when you skin your knee or fall down!!! There is nothing like being a daddy's girl!! And I am so one of them!!! Especially since I am the baby of the family!! I share that with my dad b/c he is the baby of his family and we know what it is like to always be asked to do something by your older brother and sister...even when you are an adult..hehe Here I am helping my dad with the plug in! I did this A LOT when I was young! My daddy would build things in the shop and I would go in there with him...before he knew it I had fallen asleep and I had wood shavings all over me! Those were the BEST naps! And I must brag and say that I helped my dad when he was building the porches on the shop. I learned how to plumb and make sure it was all measured out right :D
Daddy, I love you sooo very much! And I cherish all of the memories we have had together. I enjoyed being your helper today, it was just like old times. I guess I was right when I told you I would always be your little girl. I can't wait for this baby to know you and run around being your helper too!!!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

11 Week Belly Pics!! (updated with pg record)

11 week belly pics!!!!
I must say I was feeling like I was losing my belly until I saw these photos!! My jeans weren't feeling as tight, but I have worn them a couple of times since I dried them and that always stretches them out! I definitely like the full body shot better than the close ups b/c I feel like you see more clearly how my belly has grown.
One more week and I will be into my second trimester! I have a cousin that works for a cardiologist and she may let Todd and me come into the office and do an u/s. I know you aren't suppose to get too many ultrasounds, but I really want to be able to video Babe moving around for a keepsake! I mean I already have a picture of this child as an embryo, I gotta have an u/s of him/her moving around in my belly! I promise I won't abuse my cousin and try to go to her office constantly! I have told myself this will be a one time thing!! And plus I will get to share the video with all of you :D FUN!!!! If we go it will be this Wednesday, so we will see!!!


How far along: 11 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: start wt=126.5, last week=130.5, this week=129.5 Gained 3lbs
Maternity clothes? I thought I was getting there, but this week I don't feel so bloated.
Sleep: My sleep has gotten back on track and I am no longer waking up with soreness in the morning, but my dreams are crazy!
Best moment this week: getting closer to the 2nd trimester!!!
Gender: Don't know yet, but after we saw the last u/s we started saying HE...hmmmm???
Movement: not there yet, but I swear each time I feel gas that it is the baby..hehe
Food cravings: thank goodness I have been craving good ole southern veggies and cornbread!! And gatorade!
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: I want a Coke SOOOO badly!!
What I am looking forward to: my next OB appt. and hopefully hearing Babe's hb on the doppler!!
Weekly Wisdom: "Everyone will try to tell you how to be a momma and what to do with your baby, but you go with your instinct and what you want to do" said by my friend Joni!!
Milestones: One week closer to the 2nd trimester!!
Symptoms: Very Sore girls and they are HUGE, I get tired easier but not like I was earlier in the pregnancy, super human nose :D , still lots of airheadedness, now I can't eat enough, MOODINESS!! I am going to have to keep a check on my hormones before I get my foot stuck in my mouth!!!!

Gender predictor, Germs, and 11 weeks!!!

Just for fun I tried that chinese gender predictor thingie. The funny thing is that with IVF it is hard to figure out what month to put in the conception section. I used the month that the eggs were fertilized instead of the date of the transfer from the FET. When I use that month I get the result of a girl. I also tried using the month of the transfer and I get needless to say either way they will be right..hehe I know those things are silly, but they are fun for me! I wanted to buy the intelligender test that was on the doctor's show. However, when I read the box it says if you have PCOS that your results won't be accurate!! So I was bummed b/c I wanted to see if it worked :D

Other than playing around I have been trying desperately not to get sick. It seems like EVERYONE around me is sick. And they all have different things! I got the flu shot the other day, but I am terrified of getting swine flu. And I don't think I will get the HINI vaccine. It just scares me a bit! So I am still on the fence. I cannot imagine how crazy I will be once this baby gets here! I am going to have a huge bottle of sanitizer at the front door for all to use..hehe Thankfully, this will be a May baby and it won't be flu season anymore!!!

Todd works in the healthcare system and so I make him wash his hands as soon as he gets home and I would like for him to put his clothes in the laundry room and take a shower, but I am sure that is going too far! I just don't want to do anything that may hurt this baby! I have been praying for God to help me with all of these fears. Sometimes I think I am nuts and other times I just know it is that protective instinct kicking in. However, with these hormones I could seriously see myself flipping out on some random stranger for sneezing near me..hehe

On a happier less crazy woman note...I am 11 weeks today. I don't have a belly pic yet b/c Toby is working. Hopefully, we will get one this afternoon. I have decided to hold off on getting a fetal doppler for now :D We will see if I change my mind a million bet is yes!!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Love...Love..Love my Toby!!!

I am so blessed to have such an amazing and loving husband and best friend!!!! Of course, Todd has always been an amazing husband, but with pregnancy I am sure I notice a lot more. I will have to remember to always notice the little and big things that my sweety does for me with such love! I always knew he would be the best father and I see it more and more every day. He is so protective of me and kisses my belly every chance he gets. He whips out his phone with the latest u/s pics on it and shares them with everyone. Here is a picture of my stud husband vacuuming the stairs!! One of the many things he does and tells me to sit and relax. Remember this man works full time too, but comes home from a long day of work and wants to help me out!!!

And here is my sweety exhausted and sleeping on the couch. And our Maggie is such a daddy's girl. She wants to be right with him all of the time. Aren't they sweet!!!

Lastnight we tested out our new firepit (for our halloween party) and Todd hung some lights on our pergola. It was beautiful!! We were bundled up with Maggie in our arms and snuggled up with each other. We made smores and listened to some cool tunes! I felt so loved and so happy! There was lots of I love you's and kisses that Maggie wanted to join in on. She can't stand not having all of the attention :D So if she hears or sees us smooching, she jumps in our faces and starts licking our cheeks!

On the pregnancy front I am debating renting a doppler off of I am just paranoid and would like to hear Babe's hb every once in a while to let me feel better. Especially since I don't go back to the OB til Nov. 16 and they won't do an u/s at that appt. I have been reading about NT scans and am not sure if my OB has even mentioned it. Of course, I want to get one b/c then I get to see Babe for a long time on u/s. Any chance I get to see that baby I am so doing it!!! I have been feeling okay. Somedays I feel a little sick and others I am just super tired. And I am happy to report that I have been eating A LOT better. I have managed to up my protein and veggies. I know Mrs. Arlene will be proud :D At first veggies didn't sound good, but once I started eating them I couldn't stop!!!! Go Veggies!!!!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Fall Decor Pics!

Here's a few pics of some of our fall decor! I LOVE fall!!!! We found these chair covers at Cracker Barrel :D Then I bought these candle pumpkins and leaves one year from p. barn after fall when they were on sale :D

And my super cute towels I have hanging from the stove!!
We just planted some mums on the front porch and some in the back too! We also just bought five pumpkins to carve for the party!! I plan to buy more fall decor soon when it all goes on sale and use it for next year :D

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

U/S Pic at 10 weeks!!!

Here is the u/s of Babe at 10 weeks!!! He/She was moving so much that the u/s tech almost couldn't get a pic and in this one you can she the baby's little hand on top of his/her face. Todd was joking that our baby has a big nose :D ..hehe Seeing Babe never ceases to amaze me!!! I love this child sooo much already!!! Thank you Lord!!!

Oh and I am so copying Nity on this one :D Love U girl! I just posted a poll on the right side of my blog. Please have fun and vote on if you think we are having a boy or a girl. I thought this would be fun considering the old wive's tales about heart rate and gender. I am keeping the poll up til Dec. 20th unless we find out the gender sooner :D

First OB appt.

All went well at our first OB appointment yesterday! They were SUPER nice and it was such a relief considering that my RE wasn't the nicest in the world. It was funny b/c the NP I saw said oh you saw Dr....(my RE's name) and then said that she hasn't heard the best about him :D I told her that I could tell her some stories and that he has the worst bedside manner. She was amazing! She has even been through infertility and totally understood where we had come from. That was a complete blessing from God b/c I was concerned that they wouldn't understand all that we went through to get here. She even let me have an ultrasound. I will post the pic later b/c I am too lazy right now :( Babe was moving a lot on the u/s and it was hard for the u/s tech to even get a pic b/c he or she was moving sooo much. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. This little miracle moving around like he/she was dancing and saying hey mom and dad!! I am so thankful that I got to see babe again! We have set up another appt. for November 16 with the midwife that most patients go to. One of my neighbors sees her a lot and is about 2o something weeks along. I have heard she is sweet too! Oh yeah and the hb was 185, which kinda worried me and especially when the u/s tech said that it was a bit high. However, I don't think they do early ultrasounds that often if she thinks that is high b/c at my RE's office the hb was 180 and they said that was normal for this stage in the pregnancy. And that it will lower later on in the pregnancy. Todd was worried so I asked the wise and powerful dr. google when we got home...hehe I think that babe's hb was so high b/c he or she was moving around alot! I think the baby was just as excited about having the u/s as I was!!!!

I have noticed lately that everyone has advice for you when you are pg. And mostly it is just them recapping what their pregnancy was like and then you end up comparing yours to theirs and that is when you can start to worry or not really care about the differences. If there is one thing I have learned from IF it is that EVERYONE is different!! I don't have the usual nausea that most women have. To me food just tastes very different lately. I guess I am feeling very vulnerable right now. I realized after my sis had Carley that being a mom is tough. And tough in so many ways. One way is that ppl start to judge you so much more and they tend to share their opinions more freely! Which I know is hard b/c of all of the hormones and the delicate/vulnerable state you are in! I am not sure why women don't remember how they felt when they were going through the same thing...maybe they forget! I am going to try to remember :D Okay I am getting off of my soapbox..hehe

Sunday, October 11, 2009

10 week pics

U can see the pooch here really well!!

How far along: 10 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Gained 4lbs!!! oh my!!
Maternity clothes? Almost there.
Sleep: I have been super tired and sleeping, but not a good sleep, and I have been waking up in the morning with sore muscles. Not sure what that is all about!
Best moment this week: seeing my bump get bigger!!
Gender: Don't know yet, but I feel like this is a girl
Movement: not there yet
Food cravings: my taste buds have totally changed and things taste really weird! But I do crave BBQ and have never been a fan of it!
Belly Button in or out? In.
What I miss: sleeping on my tummy
What I am looking forward to: getting to 12 wks and the 1st trimester under my belt
Weekly Wisdom: "U have the pregnancy card, so use it" said by my hubby
Milestones: Another week closer to my 2nd trimester, plus we have our first OB appt. tomorrow!!
Symptoms: Tired, VERY sore girls and they are getting HUGE, nausea off and on all day, very emotional, dumbness :D, aversion to a lot of foods, sensitivity to smell, backaches, headaches, and frequent potty trips

Tomorrow we have our first OB appt. I am hoping they are super sweet and have the sweetest bedside manner! I am also hoping that they do an u/s so we can see Babe again. I am prepared to whip out some tears to get to have an u/s tomorrow and with these hormones I can do it in a heartbeat :D Please continue to pray for us and that Babe is healthy and thriving! I am a bit nervous about tomorrow. I pray all goes well and I can post some more u/s pics for y'all!!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Food for thought!!!!

Food I have eaten today:
  • half a cup of milk with a handful of Cheerios
  • two poptarts with a glass of milk
  • a cup of hot and sour soup with those crunchy thingies
  • vegetable fried rice with sweet and sour sauce
  • vegetable egg roll
  • banana sandwich
  • 2 small bags of lays potato chips
  • two halloween cookies
  • 2 glasses of gatorade

Yep and I still want more food!!!!! If I keep eating like this I will be HUGE in no time. I really need to work on eating better...don't ya think..hehe

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Feeling Free!

Well, I forgot to tell y'all that I was able to come off of my patches and estrace after my last RE appointment. And I only have to take my endometrin until this friday and then I am DONE!!!! It has been super freeing to come off of some of my meds. Also, my RE told me that I will only take my metformin til I am 12 weeks and so after that I will only be taking a PNV and an aspirin!! I am totally psyched about that!!!!! No more having to remember to put extra meds in my purse so if we go out I will have them. No more lists to check off the meds I am taking daily..just to keep up. No more patch marks on my belly!!! And this maybe TMI but no more wearing pads due to the estrace and endometrin..and you know what I am talking about!! YAY!!! I even went out and bought that cocoa butter lotion for my belly. I couldn't use it before b/c I had those stinkin patches on and I didn't want to make them come off too early! I know that this lotion isn't miracle cream, but I am gonna try it. My sister used it and she has NO stretch maybe I will be so lucky. However, if I get a million stretch marks I will not care b/c they will be a reminder of this miracle child!

As you can tell, I am having a much better day. Thank God!! For the first time since we found out I was pg I am able to get excited about this baby. I didn't want to get excited before b/c I was so scared. But all of sudden today I started to get butterflies in my tummy and I began daydreaming about my days at home with babe! Todd asked me what a day would possibly look like and I was clueless. I know at first there will be alot of feeding and napping for the baby. And changing diapers....but I am not sure what else. Besides of course trying to clean the house and keep up with the laundry.... and of course me actually sleeping and eating. I CAN'T WAIT!!!! I am ready for all the sleepless nights and spit up all over me. I am ready for it ALL!

So far I haven't been feeling sick. I have been having this pressure feeling in my lower abdomen and I am thinking it is just my uterus stretching and growing! I am not stressing over it. I haven't been really paying attention to pg symptoms. I am looking forward to my first OB appt. next Monday and getting to see Babe again! This time I am planning on bringing the camera and recording the heartbeat!!!

Sunday, October 4, 2009

belly pic at 9 weeks

Here is the 9 week belly pics!! I am actually kinda sucking my tummy in a bit in the second pic b/c it was looking pretty huge (see the first pic)!! And I think I was slouching too! So I straightened up and I think that helped. I wish I could say my day has gotten better, but it hasn't. I blame it on my hormones. I have been in the worst mood and just really witchy today! It just seems like one of those days where everything goes wrong, or in my case I am super sensitive and everything gets on my nerves :D

Here's to hoping that Monday is a much better day. I got some edwards pecan pie at the grocery store today so I am off to eat a bunch of it! That is sure to make this entire day's annoyances disappear!!!

Go back to bed and start this day all over again!!!!!

As Joni said to me on the phone today, "this is one of those days when you need to go back home, go back to sleep and wake up and start the day all over again" And it has exactly been that day and I had decided that before 11. I was so psyched this morning when I woke up and was ready to go to church. Ya see Todd works every other sunday so I am all alone on the sundays that he has to work. We joined our church last December and we aren't the best at getting to know everyone. Todd and I are VERY shy and aren't the type of ppl to run up and start conversations with strangers. Needless to say I get pretty nervous about the sundays that I go it alone. Last night I told God about how I was scared and nervous about church and how I was debating on skipping all together. I asked for His help and went off to sleep. When I woke up this morning ready to go to church I was very thankful that God had taken my fears away.

Then I went to sunday school. I really like my class, the teacher is super sweet and super genuine. He always makes it a point to make everyone feel welcome and he is just one of those ppl that puts you at ease when you chat. Our class is pretty big, but a lot of the ppl in our class do other things in the church (like teach another class) and cannot come every sunday. Usually there are about 5 ppl that come every sunday and then other ppl rotate coming to class. Every sunday there is someone new to me in class. Today we had a lot of ppl come and of course I started getting nervous when everyone was chatting and I was just sitting there. Then I had a lady sit beside me and chat with the guy on the other side of me. So that was awkward and I wasn't sure if I should stare at the ceiling or just listen in on their conversation. I felt really out of place. Then FINALLY the class began! After class I was upset and I am sure my hormones had a lot to do with this. I just kept telling myself not to cry..not to cry. I went straight to my car and left. I didn't even go to the church service. Then on the way home I went the wrong way (due to pg brain) and had to turn around...when I did start to turn a jeep behind slammed on his brakes and it sounded like a cat screeching. I was scared to death I was about to get hit. Thankfully, I did not get hit, but then I started to tear up again and lost it!!!!

And I am upset with myself b/c here I am at this church for almost a year and I still feel like an outsider. I just wish I was more outgoing! I feel like if I was then I wouldn't have this problem. It is difficult starting at a new church. I went to my church since I was little and I knew EVERYONE! Now as Todd and I start our own life at this church I wonder if it will ever be like my life at my home church. I just wish I knew what to do. There is this part of me that wants to just go to my sister's church b/c at least I would know more ppl and not have to deal with all these nerves. Don't get me wrong I know church is not a popularity contest..and I love our church. I know church is all about worshipping our amazing Lord and Saviour! I am just having some trouble with the fellowshipping part. And I hate feeling so alone at church! I really wish Todd did not have to work every other sunday. Can't we go back to the days when everything was closed on sundays!!!

Well, hopefully this day will get better. I am happy that today I am 9 weeks pregnant!!! I will post some belly shots this afternoon. I hope everyone else had a better sunday than I have had so far :D

Friday, October 2, 2009

U/S # 2!!

Here are our 8 week u/s pics!! I asked the doctor how far along I was b/c he was spurting out all kinds of things and he finally said that I was 8 weeks 5 days and my EDD is May 9, 2010! Even though Babe is measuring right at 8 weeks. My doctor talks in circles so trying to get a definite answer from him is VERY hard!!!! My appointment went very well as you can see from the pictures. Babe is growing and thriving and I am so thankful to God for answering my prayers and yours too. We heard the heartbeat and this time saw it!!! It was amazing. The HB was 180 and sounded so loud. We brought our flashdrive per my doctor's request and it didn't want to work so instead they gave us a cd with the images on them. I was hoping it was a video of Babe's heartbeat, but it wasn't. I will never forget that sound! And the other good news is that I am DONE with that doctor. When we walked out of the office I told Todd I am free, I am free!!!!
I kinda feel in shock right now. Last night I had a nightmare and woke up at 4:30 scared to death. I am sure you know what the nightmare was all about. And Todd isn't feeling so great lately. I think he is getting sick, but hopefully he won't. He woke up when I did last night and was super hot and had a sore throat. At first I thought it was funny b/c I told him he was having a hot flash. Now I feel bad b/c he is feeling pretty bad. And even though I know he feels so bad when we saw the baby on the u/s he had the biggest smile on his face. We are so happy and I cannot wait to be holding our baby in my arms!! We go to my new doc in two weeks! Thank y'all for all of your prayers..please keep um coming!!!