Wednesday, September 2, 2009

412

412!!!!


Yep, that is my 2nd beta number! The nurse just called and oddly I am not relieved. I was praying for a 1000..I know I was hoping a little too high. However, the nurse said everything looks good and my u/s is scheduled for sept. 18th. Even further away than I expected. I am starting to feel sick to my stomach thinking about last time and how this was the time when my precious baby stopped growing. I am so worried that it will happen again and I am terrified of that stupid u/s, but I want the u/s soooo badly. I wish we could do it earlier for my sanity. I am sorry to sound like a baby..I am just freaking out a bit. I have really got to start praying and do some relaxing techniques so I can calm down. I know I don't need to be stressed right now. It is amazing how I went from totally trusting God to literally begging Him to keep this baby safe. I have got to get back on track. Well, not that this tells me anything (b/c last timeit was good too), but here is the hcg chart online:
It says I am above average :D So I must focus on that :D Sorry for sounding like eeyore!! Please keep me in your prayers. Okay now I am going to have to count out my meds and see how much to order to last me through the u/s!!

9 comments:

The Patterson's said...

YEAH!! What a great number!! I remember being so nervous between my 2nd beta and the ultrasound, too. You just trust God that everything is going to be okay. And, by waiting those extra couple days you will have a heartbeat to see! So excited for you!!

Laura said...

I think I already said "Congratulations", but one more time can't hurt. Congrats! I know the anxiety of waiting for an ultrasound; but even if they did one now, you wouldn't really be able to see anything. With my first pregnancy, the nurse accidentally scheduled one right away (miscommunication), and the tech asked "are you sure your pregnant? Cause I don't see anything"...it freaked me out, but be saw more a couple weeks later. So really, the 18th is probably best. Hang in there!

Melissa said...

Those are great beta numbers...way better then what mine were and my pregnacy was fine. My first beta was 14 and my second beta was 19!! They were telling me it was a chemical pregnacy but my little girl proved them wrong...doctors don't know everything and God showed them!! I am praying for a healthy heartbeat at your ultrasound!

Amber said...

Yeah! Such great news! Praying that everything will look wonderful for your U/S on sept. 18

Michelle said...

Great numbers!!! I hope the time goes by fast!

Alissa said...

I'm so happy to hear your good news! You're in my thoughts and prayers!

momof5girls said...

Yay!!! Please, please,please, try not to worry. This is a whole new situation and the past is the past. I just told another friend that when you worry, you tend to forget things and you want to remember every precious moment. I am so thankful the Lord has blessed you with this little one and pray for you to pray each time that creeping fear comes up. Just immediately talk to the Lord and leave it there. If you have to do it a hundred times a day, do yourself and that little babe a favor and do it. We love ya and are excitedly praying for you! Love, Arlene

Jackie said...

Re-read Jeremiah 29:11 No matter what happens God has you in HIS plans! Your previous miscarriage may have been His way of keeping you in His plans. Keep on trusting girl.

shelly said...

Hey,
This is Shauna's friend Shelly. I have continued to follow your blog and I have to say congratulations! I know there is alot of anxiety right now and as I was reading my Bible today, I read a couple of things and for some reason, I know it was God, your name just popped right in my head. I thought I might share with you what I read.
Proverbs 3:25a & 26a
" Be not afraid of sudden fear", "For the Lord shall be thy confidence"
1 Peter 5:6-7
" Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God that He may exalt you in due time:
Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you."
And I always like Proverbs 3:5-6 and can be referred to no matter what is going on in your life, good or bad.
Pro. 3:5-6
" Trust in the lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
I hope this may be an encouragement to you and again I just felt lead to share this with you. Hope you have a great day.
Love in Christ,
Shelly