Saturday, August 22, 2009

Transfer day in detail!

I found myself looking back at my old posts from the last transfer and my first pregnancy. It was bittersweet. I was searching for future answers as usual. Then I read some of my old posts and those posts reminded me that I need to just have faith in God's plan. So right now I am picturing myself basking in God's love like a turtle basking the the sun's rays. Even though I know that this may not be the right timing...and I excited knowing that each day gets me closer to His plan! Before, I questioned whether or not I was meant to be a momma. Now I never question that...I know that God put this desire in my heart for a reason. And all of that helps give me peace about it all b/c I know it is only a matter of time before I have a child in my arms! I hope none of you ever feel like you are not meant to be mommas. I know that God put those desires in your heart for a reason and if you can't quite get to a point of knowing that then I will know if for you until you can!!!

Okay I said I would explain why I have now started calling my doctor..Dr. Jerk! Yesterday my doctor pitched a fit and showed his true colors. While we were in the middle of starting the transfer...imagine...me on the table showing all my glory and the nurse starting the ultrasound on my tummy. Dr. Jerk had already gotten everything down there ready for the embryologist to bring in the catheter with our embie in it. Before she could even get through the door Dr. Jerk asked me when the last time I went to the bathroom was. I answered him 11:30..it was after 2 at that point and I had drank 22 ounces of water. Then he asked me again with a really added to the question. I said 11:30 a little bit louder b/c I am used to ppl not hearing me. I tend to talk to low. He got up and pushed his chair back and said angrily well we can't do this now, we have to wait, her bladder is NOT full. Then my nurse turned to me and said that is why I asked you if your bladder was full. I was speechless. I told her that I feel like I have to pee and showed her the bottle of water I had inhaled before. She didn't believe me and by that time Dr. Jerk had stormed out of the room. They left me in the transfer room with the ultrasound gel all over my stomach, which had gotten all over my shirt by then. I was so upset that I cried. How could he be so insensitive on such an important day. All this crap about not stressing and he is causing all the stress. When the nurse came back in I told her that Dr. Jerk was rude and there was a better way to say what he said...she only commented by saying can you imagine working with him monday through friday. So I knew then that he was simply a big ole Jerk!! My friend Joni told me to pee on him when he got back in there and just say oops. I know that would have been hilarious, but I could not do it. Joni was so upset with him too and so we waited for an hour and I drank 44 more ounces of water to make sure my darn bladder was bursting at the seams.

Then after the transfer Dr. Jerk tried to be all nice and polite and said congratulations to me and then put his hand out to shake my hand. Well...somehow I had gotten some of that ultrasound gel on my hand and well...I couldn't be impolite...so I shook his hand! hehe That was about as mean as I could get, but somehow it made me feel a little bit better. To top all of that off, I got so sick on the way home. I felt like I was going to die. I know a bit dramatic, but I did start crying and told Joni I just wanted my mommy!! And I did so badly! Thankfully, Todd told me to get some food in my system b/c I had possible washed all the electrolytes of my body and was getting weak. Joni had some skittles so I ate a few and felt much better. I am sure the good cry helped a bit too. That day was just so overwhelming...with all the old emotions clashing with all my new emotions..it was crazy. We stopped on the way home and got the best chick-fil-a sandwich ever! So that was my crazy day and why my doctor has a new name!!!!

7 comments:

The Patterson's said...

So sorry your doctor acted like that! How RUDE!!! Hope this it is God's plan for this transfer to give you your real live baby!!

The Unproductive One said...

Good luck and hope you get your BFP from this Cycle Dana!!!

Heather said...

I am so sorry your doc was so rude. When I had my transfer a week ago today, my bladder was not full enough, so they put in a catheter and filled me on up! Wonder why your place does not do they same! Love your site and hoping good things for you this time!

Heather
http://sweetnessandme.blogspot.com

Michelle said...

That is just HORRIBLE! He sounds like my RE's partner. When I had my last miscarriage he basically made it sound like it was my fault and that I was being a big inconvienence to him. I told the nurses that I will not do anything there any more unless my RE is there. You are a much nicer person then I because I would have told him off.

Anyway, I am glad it is over and hopefully in 2 weeks you will be saying it was well worth it.

momof5girls said...

Please, find another Dr.!!! I am so upset with that moron, I'd like to have his license taken away!!! I hope the next time you get pregnant it will be with a truly compassionate and professional Dr. I'm so sorry you had to endure that. Just do the right thing and pray for him and let the Lord work on him. I'm keeping you in my prayers that all will go well and that you will have good news for us soon.

Stuart and Sarah Creamer said...

Hey girl...I am sorry he was so rude. I can't imagine my doctor being that way...seeing how that time is SO EMOTIONAL!!!!! Praying for God's plan and that precious baby to stick around! Love you!

Nichole said...

Dana - so sorry your doc lived up to his nick-name! Glad that the transfer is over and I will be praying praying praying for you my friend! BTW...Chick-fil-a is one of my FAVORITE places to eat!