Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Upcoming fears and Sarah!

It is getting closer to the next FET. When AF comes I am suppose to call my nurse and I think we will start it all up again. I am pretty scared about it all. I may just have to go into with a "it isn't gonna work" attitude. If you haven't noticed I get my hopes up really easily and get so passionate and then BAM knocked back down. I haven't been the best on my diet...the one for PCOS. I do good maybe one meal a day. My diet is so hard for me. I know it sounds so stupid, but I am a southern girl that loves cornbread and sweet tea..and cheese grits. And don't get me wrong I would do anything to raise my chances of having a baby, but for some reason it is like I am addicted and don't even realize I am doing it.

I decided I was going to call my IVF nurse and ask her to do another hormone panel on me...they did one early on in my treatment and I would like to see if I am getting better or staying the same. I have lost 30 lbs and I am hoping that it helped me out in the hormone department. I will keep y'all updated on all of that.

Also,my mind has also been on Sarah. I know exactly how she is feeling and my heart is breaking for her. I have thought about her a lot today and asked God to hold her tightly and heal her heart. I just wish this wasn't so hard for us all. I wish we could just get pregnant and stay pregnant. I wish it was easier. Please if you get a chance go to her blog and give her some much needed love!!

4 comments:

Stuart and Sarah Creamer said...

Thanks so much for praying for me. I know you know how this all feels. It is very hard to get that "taste" and feeling of pregnancy- only for it to be taken away as quickly as He gave it to us- but I have to trust He has His reasons. I know...easier said than done! Praying for you and this FET!

shauna said...

I have been praying very hard for Sarah also. I don't know her, but I know the longing of a mother's heart, and have read about all she's been through. I know that it's gotta be so scary going into a transfer after a miscarriage. I along with the other girls here will lift you up, and believe when it's hard for you to believe. Try not to worry about your diet, or anything else as much as possible.
Love ya girl,
Shauna

Nichole said...

Thank you so much for your comment! If I had a super power, I would make this go away for all of us!
Big hugs my friend!

Amber said...

Congrats on the 30 lb loss thats great. didnt realize you were a southern girl Im in the deep south also so know how good all that stuff is and you cant be a southerner without the good ole sweet tea!

Prayers for the next upcoming cycle