Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Bout to go to the beach :D

Hey y'all!! I am sitting here watching CMT videos and loving it. I love being southern and listening to some good old country music. Yesterday was nuts b/c Todd and I were trying to get everything ready for the beach. We had to find a beach umbrella and beach chairs and of course we found them at his work...hehe After we searched everywhere. Wal-.ma.rt didn't have them..shocking I know. The employee I asked said they didn't get any in this year...oh well. So FYI don't ck there if you are looking for beach gear :D And today I am washing a mountain of clothes for the trip. Then I am headed off to tarjah to return somethings. I know my life is so exciting right now HEHE!!!

I have been up and I have been down..emotionally lately. I have my oh so sad days and then I have days when I am okay. I found that I was pulling away from Todd and so I sat down with him and we had a talk. The counselor in me jumped right out and I started anyalyzing and got my wheels turning. So we are on the same page now...and I told him I was sorry for distancing myself. I guess we take it out on the ones we love the most. It is hard to think about where I would be if.... I would be 10 weeks pg this sunday and at the beach. I have to almost push those thoughts out as soon as they come or I lose it. I had a friend tell me that sometimes when ppl go through hard times they either become bitter or better. She is suppose to email me the bible verse that goes with that. I have really been thinking about that and it has been weighing on my heart. I don't want to be bitter I want to be better!! So that is my goal for now. Going at it one step at a time.

I can't wait to post some pics of the beach. We are going to be so busy b/c my sis and her fam are coming down and todd's family too. We have one or two days where it will be just us...I am looking forward to those days!! Us under our umbrella on the beach just being!! Of course I will have SPF 1000 on :D Me and my pigmentally challenged self!!!


Well I will see y'all when I get back!! Love to all my sisters!!!

10 comments:

A said...

Have a great time at the beach! I bet you feel so much better after having a heart-to-heart about the grieving. I will continue to pray for healing!! (I bet the beauty and magnitude of the beach will help!)

Nichole said...

I LOVE the beach! Have a great time, relax and just enjoy yourself!

Becca said...

Have a wonderful trip!! I'm so glad you and Todd had a good conversation and are back on the same page. I find that when I'm feeling worst, I usually distance myself from my hubby, too - I think it's because we can be completely "real" with them (knowing they love us unconditionally), whereas with other people it's more necessary to "put on a good face", even if we're struggling. Anyway, I hope you guys have a great time away. I'll be thinking of you!!

Michelle said...

I am glad you both had a talk. You need each other so it is good you noticed it and corrected it. I hope you have a great time at the beach. I am very jealous!

Ashley said...

Have fun!!! Enjoy every minute of it;)

Michelle said...

Have a great time, you deserve it! :) I'm with you...Better over bitter. I know it's hard, but know that you have all of us to help you through!!! :)
~Michelle

Stuart and Sarah Creamer said...

Yeah for the beach...we are going after the 4th! I can't wait!

momof5girls said...

Yay!!! for you! I'm so glad to hear you and Todd had the talk. It's so true that when we go through things sometimes we tend to pull away from our hubby and God. It's always so good to have that fellowship and communication flowing again. I'm so excited for you getting to go to the beach. I'm afraid we take it for granted here. We can just hop across the bridge and Destin has the MOST BEAUTIFUL beaches ever. I wish you could make it over here one day. Anyway, have a great, relaxing time. Try to get there early in the mornings and get your place staked out and wear lots of spf 50 and reapply often. I'm pigmently challenged too,LOL. You are too funny!

Miss Mac said...

Have fun! I always find the sights and sounds at the beach to be a kind of therapy.. hoping it's a nice, relaxing time for you. Be sure to take some country summer tunes with you-- When the Sun Goes Down, She's Country, All Summer Long... are a few that would be on my list:] Enjoy!

Hope said...

Have so much fun! It was good that you talked with your DH. Being honest about your feelings is the best way to go.