Sunday, April 5, 2009

Tomorrow is Half Way Down!!

Tomorrow will make us half way to an answer :D Yes, I am soo counting the days and ready for April 13 to be here already. I haven't been totally obsessing, but just a little bit. I am so psyched to report that I have had some peace with me lately. Like in my previous post..all I am doing is looking to the Lord. So when I get worried or nervous...or scared..I just focus all of my attention to Him. The Lord has been good to me and I will praise Him even if this doesn't work.

Lately I have been totally chilling. I went to meet my sister, my mom, and my neecy poos yesterday to eat lunch. It was nice to get out of the house and my sister and mom kept warning my nieces not to jump on me or ask me to hold them. It is so hard for me to say no to them. They are so sweet. I asked them if they wanted a girl cousin or a boy cousin..and they both agreed on a girl. They are girly I wasn't surprised. They looked at me and then my stomach in a funny way when they heard I could be having a baby. I am sure they think..where is her tummy?? They are just precious. I can't wait to see my child playing with them.

I also had a talk with my nephew. He wanted to make sure that I knew that I could still play with him when we have a baby. He loves to play with Todd and me. He even has to sit in between us when we go out to eat. I could just eat him up. He was so cute at first b/c he thought that we were having two in my belly..and one in Todd's belly. I just agreed with him and let his mom deal with that discussion :D Every night he prays for us...and you know you just couldn't ask for more love. We have been so blessed with our nephews and nieces. We have two nephews and two nieces. So it works out perfectly....and I get the best of both worlds. Having them in my life has made this process of being IF so much easier. There were days when I was so down and heartbroken, and all one of them had to do was give me a hug or say they loved me and I instantly had a smile on my face.

I have always been drawn to kiddos. I can just relate to them..they are so genuine and loving. You don't have to look the part with just have to play :D or be silly. I always gravitate towards children..I guess that is why I got my degree in school counseling. I miss my kids at the school. I loved listening about their lives and showing them that they were special and important. I guess that is why I am so dedicated to having a child of my own. I have so much love to give.

I did something...kinda..crazy. I am actually ashamed that I did this, but I found a due date calculator for IVF. And according to due date would be Dec. 16. Right before Christmas...which would be AMAZING. What a precious Christmas gift. It just shows you how awesome God is..he knows what you need and then HE gives you even more!!!

Love to all!! And sorry about my rants...just another week to put up with them :D


shauna said...

Children are so precious. I know what you mean about being around them helps through all stages of IF. How awesome that your child will have all these little cousins to love on him/her. I'm praying for a Dec.16 baby for you!!!

Miss Mac said...

Half-way today! Yeah! I can't think of a better Christmas gift either:]