Friday, April 10, 2009

PLEASE PRAY!!!!!!!!!!

I woke up this morning VERY EARLY to take Todd to get his wisdom teeth taken out and saw that I was spotting. All at once my world was spinning and the only word that would come out of my mouth was no! So we called todd's mom and she jumped up and took him for me. I was scared to get out of bed, so I stayed in bed til they got back. When they got back I had still not heard from my nurse so I was just praying that the note I had from after the ET was right. It said that 50% of women spot on the day of their pg test. And today would've been mine, but I changed it to take Todd to the doctor.

The nurse called and told me to take a hpt. Which TOTALLY freaks me out. And of course, I took two, and they were negative. When I FINALLY talked to her again she told me that the tests were probably right but I would still need to come in on Monday and get bloodwork and and ultrasound done. I am still spotting, but it is not heavy. And as far as the color, it isn't bright red, but not real brown either. SO that doesn't help me much. I spent most of the morning crying. God blessed me by having Todd's mom here and my Best friend too. They comforted me when Todd was totally out of it from his surgery. Bless his heart, he was trying, but he was all druged up and out of it.

IT is weird b/c this morning the song..Leaning on the Everlasting arms came to my mind. I know with Faith, she heard Blessed Assurance. And I truly think that was God comforting me this morning. I am pretty heartbroken, but I look at those pictures of the embryos and I can't quite give up on them. SO I am waiting until Monday to declare defeat. I believe that God can do anything and a miracle could happen on Monday. If not, then I will have to weep for a while and then trust God's plan. I had so much hope about this and it is so hard. Right now I am numb and trying to just not think about it.

So please pray for us. Pray for a miracle. Pray for us to find comfort in God's answer. With it being Good Friday. I can imagine how the disciples felt and how much pain they were in about the upcoming days, but Sunday Jesus Rose!! From the dead and changed our futures forever! He would never give up on us, so I am NOT giving up on my babies either!!!

11 comments:

The Carter Family said...

Hi! I found your blog through Sarah Creamers blog. I got to her from Kelly's Korner. I've been checking in on y'all for a couple of days now. We are about to start this whole process with our first RE appt. on Tuesday.
I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you! We both will get there in God's timing. Just know that there is someone in MS praying for y'all!

~*~Bodhi~*~ said...

I'm praying....trust me I'm praying.

I'm hoping that you're in the 50% that spot on the day of their pregnancy test, I really do.

You're in my thoughts hon and I hope you get that BFP and that your BFN were wrong!

xxxxx

shauna said...

I am praying for you girl, and hoping that the hpt's were wrong. This is such a stressful process, and I pray God will give you peace until Monday so you can have the blood test done.

Rosemary - My Patch of Serenity said...

Hi
I found your blog through Bodhi's blog where she mentioned that you needed prayers.
I will keep your in my prayers and say a special prayer for you at night's Easter vigil mass.
Thinking of you and God Bless.
Rosemary
xxx

momof5girls said...

Dear Dana,
I'm Shauna's mom. I just want you to know that my husband and I are praying for you and Todd both. I never realized how for granted I had taken the blessing of conception and birth until going through infertility issues with Shauna. Most people do not understand the depth of longing and pain. I have to say it has also proven that hard times do truly bring you closer to the Lord and reveal who you really are. I have been so excited for you and as I told Shauna many times, I know it will happen for you; not when, just trust the Lord that when it happens it will be the exact person the Lord has for your life and that time and purpose. God bless you. Praying for you daily.

Beautiful Mess said...

Hi Dana, I'm here from ~*~Bodhi~*~ 's blog. She's asking all of her readers to stop by and give you some loves and pray for you. I'm praying for you and sending you lots of hugs and love.
*HUGS*

Michelle said...

I am praying for you! I know it is hard and this weekend will feel like forever but try to hang in there! Lots of HUGS!

Living With Loss said...

Hi there

Just found your blog and wanted to say I'm sorry for all you've been through and are going through. You have a lot of courage.

I wish you lots of luck on your journey from here.

Stuart and Sarah Creamer said...

Hey sister,
I am praying for you. I know it is hard- believe me- going through this 2 times already and this frozen cycle is the 3rd. Each time is as devasting as the first, but I am here to tell you- God WILL get you through it. I promise He will. Look only to Him to get you there. When He is ready, we will be blessed beyond measure. It's hard, confusing, irritating, heart-breaking, etc...but never give up. I will never give up on my dream and desire to become a mother. It just may take a while. Praying for you on Monday!

Love and Hugs,
Sarah

if you ever wanna talk- feel free to email me anytime
sarahcreamer@hotmail.com

Miss Mac said...

Dana- God is still in the miracle business. Praying here too & thinking of you.

Rosemary - My Patch of Serenity said...

Hi Dana
Just popping in to say hello to you today and let you know that I am thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers.
God bless and much love
Rosemary