Monday, March 23, 2009

an update

It is SOOO time for the ER! I am just bursting out in tears all over the place.

Today I went to the RE and everything looked good. That is all my dr. really says..so I wait until i get to talk to my IVF nurse and get the low down. They are thinking there maybe 15 good eggs. There are more, but they don't look as mature. So she said if she had to guesstimate a number it would be 15. Which is more than I could have ever hoped for. I would take 2 great ones :D My bloodwork came in this afternoon and my estrogen was in the 2000s so they want me to continue my meds for tonight and go back to the dr. tomorrow for more bloodwork. I am really getting sick of driving all that way..plus it is near downtown..so the traffic is HORRIBLE. This morning I left at 6:30 am and didn't get there until after 8 am. Thankfully Todd is off tomorrow so he can drive me up there. I am so not a morning person!! I am a bit disappointed b/c I was hoping to do the trigger shot tonight, but if there is one thing I have learned in this process..it is patience!!! And all God's ppl said..AMEN!!

So back to the crying spells. We went to eat at my parent's house tonight and as soon as I hugged my momma I just started bawling. Then when we got home and I realized I did not have anymore Q caps..I lost it again!! Luckily one of my best friends was over here and between her and Todd I was laughing in no time.

I would like to document how I am feeling right now so I can look back on it and know that it wasn't some weird dream. I have never been so emotional and forgetful. My ovaries feel like two grapefruit hangin out in my tummy..then when I try to pee..they hurt..I know TMI!! My stomach is soo sore from all the shots. I am tired, but can't sleep. I feel like I am on edge all the time..like one thing could set me off on an angry spree or a crying spree. I am just exhausted by all of this. But just like I told my momma as I left her house tonight..it will be all worth it!!

1 comment:

I Believe in Miracles said...

The almost there but not yet is the worst! I had that happen both with the ER and the FET cycle --- they predicted x day and then it came and went. BUT --- the silver lining is that you are almost there, right? You're so much closer than you were before.

Amen is right! Praying for you.

~~HUGS~~