Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Sing His Praises!!

It never ceases to amaze me when God answers my prayers. It isn't that I think He isn't capable of answering them, it is just that He answered my prayers. It amazes me that I am even the least bit important to Him. I feel like God has been acting so powerfully in my life. I have recently started to really read His word and try to become a better student of His teachings. I have also started to pray more and I really feel more of a closeness with that I don't think I have felt before. I honestly wasn't doing any of this for any reward from Him or a pat on the back. I did it b/c I need Him and I want to show God that He is important to me.

I have some praises to sing now!! My sister in law..which is more my blood sister to me in every way. Well, she lost her job not too long ago. It was not a good time for her and my brother b/c they had just decided to do IVF. Which we all know costs some BIG BUCKS!! So they were in a limbo waiting period and all the while we would talk and I could feel her heart. She is so strong, my sister. She trusts God and knows He has the best in store for her. Of course, me I was trying to find a way to fix it all! But she held strong and kept her head up and she just kept on going. Not to mention me...who is starting IVF. Which couldn't have been easy to hear about.

I had read that I should start writing down my prayers so that I could see how much God really answers pray. So I did...and my sister has her job back. It was the BEST news ever this morning. She called me and told me and all I could think was...THANK YOU GOD!!!!! I have to admit that I have been a bit skeptical on God answering prayer...especially my prayer. And I try to tell myself that my time and God's time is so different. So I really didn't expect such a speedy response.

I am so thankful!!! God is amazing and never ceases to amaze me!!! Thank you Lord for giving sissy's job back and giving me more hope. Thank you for teaching me Your word..Your truth. One day that truth will set me free :D

Also, I am still trying to figure out why, but God has been showing me the lesson in I Samuel about Hannah. It is a great story and very inspiring and if you get the daily double portions you have already read it. But I read it in this workbk I am reading then it was in the ddp too!! So go and read it and be inspired and humbled! B/c I know every one of us has a "pearl" in our lives!!

Here is the ddp: A Profile of Peninnah
1 Samuel 1

Hannah’s quest for child was not just a bump in the road. It was a full blown detour in the plan she had mapped out for her life! 1 Samuel 1:7 tells us that Hannah would go to the house of the Lord to worship year after year. Every time she went, she carried a heavy heart with her. Her womb was silent, but her rival, Peninnah, was not! Peninnah would purposefully hurt Hannah because she knew Elkanah loved Hannah. She used the most powerful weapon in her arsenal: her children.

Peninnah’s name spoke volumes about her character. Peninnah actually means pearl. When you learn about this bitter woman, you’ll probably not think of a pearl as a beautiful gem that adorns precious jewelry. Rather, think of what causes a pearl to develop. A tiny grain of sand finds its way into a oyster’s shell and causes an irritation. The oyster reacts to the irritation and coats the source with a lubricant. Eventually, this irritation produces a pearl. Peninnah had no idea—and no intention—of producing a great pearl in Hannah’s life.

Imagine this scene: Hannah walks into the room, eyes red and puffy from hours of pleading with God again. Peninnah sits with her newest infant latched onto her breast and eyes Elkanah for his reaction. He looks at Hannah and his expression is pained due to the suffering of his darling. He begins to prepare Hannah’s dinner. Maybe this will help her feel better. He scoops up a double portion for his love. Peninnah sees it all and feels a twinge of rejection in her heart. “My, my! How beautiful this baby is!” A tiny grain of sand finds its way into Hannah’s heart. Don’t you agree Hannah? He looks just like his father, Elkanah!” Another grain of sand. “There’s nothing quite like snuggling a tiny baby next to your heart, is there, Hannah? Oh, that’s right! You have given Elkanah no child! How the Almighty has forgotten you!” Hannah could surely have built sand castles in her heart!

Can you imagine?

Maybe you can. “I guess I’ll never get grandchildren from you!” A tiny grain of sand finds its way into your heart. “At least you can go on vacation any time you want!” Another grain of sand. “I know how you feel. It took six months for me to get pregnant!” Is there any end to the irritation of the heart? “You should be grateful for what you do have.” Just hand me a shovel!

The infertile heart is so vulnerable. Well-meaning people say hurtful things. Most of the time, people don’t intend to hurt us like Peninnah meant to hurt Hannah. However, if you someone accidentally drops a brick on your foot, your foot still hurts regardless of their intent!

If there is an abundance of Peninnahs in your life, perhaps you’ll find a couple of passages of Scripture to be healing to your hurting heart. Psalm 34:18 says “the LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 147:3 says “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds (or sorrows)”. If hurtful words have injured your heart, let the Lord come near to you and bind your wounds. He knows how to speak peace and restoration to the soul deeply touched by the pain of infertility and the words of the Peninnahs in our lives. Only God, the master jeweler, knows how to create beautiful pearls from irritating grains of sand!

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1 comment:

Nichole said...

Hey there I just recently signed up for the Daily Double and literally it is my favorite part of the day. I am printing them up as I go and putting them in a binder so I can constantly go back and reflect. They are absolutely amazing! I only wish I had found them 4 years ago!

Thank you for being such an inspiration to me!