Thursday, February 5, 2009

I am breathing again!!

Okay, I started breathing again today and feeling better. Today started out to be VERY confusing. We were dealing with insurance junk and trying to figure out the whole in network...out of network thing. We contemplated going to another doctor to save money, but then ended up realizing that we feel better with this doctor. Even if we have to pay is worth it. I think part of it is still the shock of doing IVF. You think you are ready...emotionally...there is still part of you that holds onto hope that maybe you don't have to do it. I guess I have been afraid. I know that I can not fear, b/c God is with me and will only give me what I can handle. I trust His judgement of that..even though sometimes I wonder!

So I can finally breathe a sigh of relief and know that we have a set plan. We are going to do this and we are going to pray it works. I know that there may be some unexpected bumps...and we may have to stop the process for various reason...but we are still going to think positive and keep on cruising.

God has been so good to me. He lets me vent and have my fit, then he helps me find peace when I feel so hopeless. I was reading the daily double portion...thanks Ibelieveinmiracles for the info. It said:

Do not worry…(Mt. 6:34) There are so many things you must think about when
you face infertility. Will we see a doctor, or will we try to conceive on our own? If we choose medical care, how far will we take it and where will the money come from? What if we conceive only to lose the baby? Worry can paralyze you! Jesus tells you not to worry because He knows He can carry you through whatever life throws at you--even infertility! If God is for you, who can stand against you? Even with the uncertainty of infertility, God has a plan for your life so you do not have to worry.

In your anger, do not sin. (Ephesians 4:26) It’s okay to be mad! There will be times in this infertility experience when you see everyone around you conceive and you are still waiting and all you want to do is “pitch a hissy fit” (as we say in the Southern vernacular)! Find a good, thick pillow and pound away!

Why does God post this warning? Because He knows anger can fester and become sin in your life and unresolved sin can give the devil an opportunity to destroy you. God loves you too much to let you run head-first into sin without posting a warning sign. Anger is an emotion we all have, but allow God to deal with you and don’t let your anger lead to sin.

Do not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not
grow weary. (Galatians 6:9) What are you doing right? Are you trusting God to bring you through this difficult season of your life? Don’t lose heart! Keep trusting! Do you keep picking up your Bible for answers, and bending your knee in prayer? Keep studying His Word and keep the lines of communication open with your Heavenly Father. Even when it is difficult and it seems that Heaven is silent (and we all have those times), don’t lose heart! You will reap a harvest if you stay faithful through this season. Who knows what kind of harvest our amazing God may give you? Your harvest may come in the form of peace, it may come in the form of a more intimate knowledge of God than you ever dreamed possible. Of course, every woman who struggles with baby hunger prays for a harvest of a child! Whatever the harvest God chooses to bless you with, don’t lose heart!

Here is the link if you wanna sign up for e-mails..pray for others..or send in prayer requests...and much more! Sarah's Laughter

I have thoroughly enjoyed and needed the encouragement through God's word...our truth that will set us FREE!!


Nichole said...

That is just beautiful! Thank you for posting the link - I could REALLY use some encouraging words like that in my email!

I am so glad that you guys have a plan - Good Luck!

Michelle said...

I am so glad that things are going in the right direction for you. all you can do is keep putting one foot in front of the other and know God is in control (I so need to take that advice).

I Believe in Miracles said...

Dana, I'm so sorry things have been rough for you lately. Even if I haven't been commenting as much, please know I've been praying.
Love the verses!!