Friday, August 1, 2008

My Sister, My Hero, My Nieces, My Hope!!!!

Everytime I am around my nieces I get a glimpse at what being a mother would be like. It maybe that fact that they both have little pieces of me in them that I see every now and then or the close bond I feel with them both. I cherish that fact that I can tell them each a million times in a visit that I love them. I don't want them to EVER wonder if their Aunt loved them. I want them to know for a fact. I can imagine the push over mom I will be because when I look into their blue and green eyes I melt. IT is what I imagine motherhood is like. You are so proud of these little girls for everything that they do.

So yesterday I got to spend the day with my neecy poos and my sister. My sister and I have always been more like twins than sisters born seven years apart. She always took me under her wing and for no reason at all would take me everywhere with her. I was probably not the best accessory for a teenager when I was only 9, but she loved me all the same. And never let anyone mess with me...well other than her. She was allowed to :D I am realizing that because I see so much of myself and the woman/mother I want to be in my sister....that is obviously why I feel so much of a bond with my neecy poos. I mean my sis and I look just alike and talk and laugh just alike. So it makes me proud to hope that I am kind of a second mom to those girls. Never their mom, but I am happy with second place :D

After all these years my sister has given me so many wonderful memories and sage advice. BUT the best gift she has ever given me is my nieces. Throughout my infertility...those girls give me hope and so much love. And seeing my sister as MOM is so awesome. I get to see me in the future with my children. And trust me I can only hope to be as great of a mom as my sissy is. I love you soooo much Terri :D

Hope I made you cry...hehe

5 comments:

Terri Franklin said...

You did make me cry. I love you so much. Thank you for all of your positive remarks. I will always cherish the relationship we have. You are going to be a GREAT Mom!!!!!!

Jill said...

You did make me cry... mostly because I have this same feeling about my twin neices every time I think about them. Everyone tells me that the feelings intensify when it's your own kids, but I just can't imagine it being any more powerful.............

I Believe in Miracles said...

Awe!!! You ARE going to make an absolutely fabulous Mommy!!!

SAHW said...

What a sweet and lovely testament to your sisterhood and friendship...I'm sure she did cry. :)
One day you'll be an awesome mom, just like you're an awesome aunt. Your nieces are beautiful btw. :)

Nichole said...

Ummm ya, you made me cry too. I feel awful...I just found out my sister is pg again and I cried. IF is so unfair and reading your post just made me realize how much IF has changed me.
On the flip side...it actually made me chuckle and grin to think that this major "women" icon would be IF also if she was a real human. Somehow that just made me feel better today.
I will definately be checking in on you tomorrow! I am keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you.
Oh...one last thing. I thought about you this morning while I was eating a pumpkin chocolate chip cookie on my way to work for breakfast. See... you aren't the only one that struggles with the PCOS diet. But we have to give ourselves those little sweet (or potato) treats sometimes!